Hey Girl. Running: Where Nothing Changes But You. Vibes And Stuff ~ A Tribe Called Quest

Hello readers, enjoy the musical selection while I thank you for your attention to this matter: I love long ROAD MILES, it's true, but for the record training has moved on and picked up in a way that I have missed so desperately since late fall '11 coach has had me relegated to the treadmill and with good reason that subsequently produced great results and allowed me to finish up an indoor half marathon with a 7:54 pace and this is why it's helpful to work with, trust and employ the input of someone who is versed in training both intellectually and physically, I consider myself a total newb in both respects (like about everything) but that's pretty much being humble and recognising myself as never having fully arrived from performance to performance, though at times I'm thrilled by how I ran, certainly what I have going on with running never becomes an accomplishment which sort of carries with it a definite sense of doneness so I come to you with this entry because (well I am a stickler for not over rewarding), for the last couple of years, I started my new year running training with a marathon in March, but this year I decided not to drive to Virginia Beach with all the pomp and circumstance and run the distance, I passed, took a big ol' pass, which failed to enter in as an argument TO register for the VA 26.2 alas the very strong feeling of lostness is now where one finds herself, so in a flurry of confusion I quickly registered for the Eastern States 20 miler, a race that now starts in front of the high school (where I successfully graduated from, ON TIME and stuff) and heads by the house where I grew up (Which is still IN THE FAMILY and stuff) and down the coastline into Massachusetts crossing over the finish line at the 20 mile mark and so I am very excited about this distance, I have never raced it, it's nearly in the middle of the two distances that constantly have my attention and interest, the full and the half marathon, given it's nearly centered there I should find myself in a new category of tired or something or a whole new category of EFFORT one that is touched on in training at times and I know how it feels when I hit that effort it's sort of a cross between oh shit I should stop this because I can stop and I do choose to do this to myself and then it's like oh shit if I stop I make a statement to myself and before I attempt to formulate what that statement is...it's just as well that I choose not to formulate because then I can customize my bail in a very sophisticated way that makes sense to me and because I am nearly always reasonable, ha, second guessing will ultimately unhinge my goal of pushing through challenges and attacking the 20 miles in 5 mile increments and logging hours on the road between this moment here with you and when someone yells GO! in that moment there with them and coming out the other side to enjoy a relaxing cup of coffee, feel largely unaccomplished, and begin the process ALL OVER AGAIN.